Monday, April 7, 2008
where's that easy button??
each year we've decided to evaluate our schooling decision. when our oldest was in kindergarten, this was such a huge debate in our minds. should we send her to school or home school her? we struggled back and forth with making a decision. .. to a point that the school system grew annoyed!!.. not to mention our families odd questions and critiques.
if only there could be a logical black and white answer. instructing your children in the way that they should go consists of this process: a) b) c) d)
we gathered advice, opinions, prayed. it seemed that everything circled around what God was calling specifically our family to do, even though it had been modeled incredibly each way in other's lives around us. sometimes there isn't a right or a wrong answer. both paths have difficulties and rewards to them.
i think it felt so good to just make a decision for first grade and to roll with it. and so we have found ourselves the past three years with a dining room full of books, papers and projects pasted to our walls, and fridays are labeled as spelling test day.
this spring God has prompted me to question why again that i have made the choice that i have. what is my purpose behind it and what is best for each of my children. i have grown comfortable in my decision, and changing from that scares the wits out of me!!
i have enjoyed these days so much. watching each of my children learn, the next moment passing their knowledge on to their younger siblings. i have enjoyed breaking the structure our culture often demands. of seeing first hand their weaknesses and strengths and experiencing them with them. but it has had it's struggles and sacrifices.
what does it mean though to be in the world and not of it? why can i so easily envision bringing my children into the center of another country but not in a school system in my little hometown? can i trust Him or is it what He has called us to do? what are God's purposes for them individually and what is He trying to show them?
ahh... does anyone else find themselves burdened with crazy questions??